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Sometimes I go against my first impressions and let people in. I mean, first impressions aren't everything, haha right Khanh? Though, I always find myself wishing I had gone with my original instincts. No regrets of course, every burned friendship is another lesson. I am very cautious with who I trust now. Some people only want to use me. Some make wonderful friends for the most part but have such glaringly obtrusive character flaws that it becomes almost impossible to maintain an intimate relationship with them. These flaws of course never surface until your friendship has been established for quite some time.

I'm a pretty tough person to get to. I'm closed off in many ways. And while I will give pretty much anyone an honest answer if asked, there are few people with whom I share my true feelings. Most are only interested in facts anyway, they don't care about the emotional ramifications and if they do ask it's usually out of courtesey. And the very few people who are close to me have broken through a lot of barriers to get there. And when it comes down to it, there's only one person who I can really say anything to because she's doesn't have any biases.

I'm just feeling pretty disappointed in who some of the people I formerly adored turned out to be. And while I still believe that he/she/they are good people underneath, it's difficult to feel the same way about a person after their true viasage has been revealed.

But I'm not angry or bitter. Forgiveness comes easy to me, acceptance as well. I am enjoying my carefree life while I can. Sleepless days and nights filled with amusement and youthful pursuits.

I haven't actually felt this content in a long time.