There's been this feeling of unaccomplishment looming over me. Although it was a conscious decision of mine, I still feel a bit unfulfilled.

In high school, my commitments dictated my life. Mondays at lunch were NHS officer meetings, Tuesday 08 meetings, Wednesday NHS club meeting (I was pretty sad that I had to move a whole club just because all the other 08 officers refused to move our Thurs. meetings), Friday was French club too ever now and then. Not to mention, the Union, school plays (rehearsals, hell weeks), SLT meetings, Girls for a Change, opera. Comedy Sportz was good until everyone left. And let's not forget the ones I didn't stick with judo, Rock for AIDS. Remember when I tried to work as a tutor?! Haha. And every now and then a big event would pop up such as the blood drive or pretty much any school activity and my delicate balance of school, BF, and my numerous activities was decimated. There goes my sleep! Oh! Guess I'm not seeing my mom for another month. Going to India though was a really good break from interning at Juniper and my otherwise hectic life. Though I remember the day I got back I had a paper due for AP Govt. That was the life.

Well, typing that out has made me feel a lot more reassured in cutting back this year. Haha. ICAN this summer too just made me appreciate having time to not do anything. The most intense late day/ all nighter of my life. The sad part is while I am hesitant to take on more, I'm sure I will soon be. It's just not in me to sit back and do nothing. Not that I consider taking classes nothing, that is afterall the main reason we are all here. I just need more than that. Some people are happy doing the bare minimum and that's good too if that's what they want. I just have to be doing something. And I suppose I have been, if you consider staying out until the wee hours something.