Yesterday I got Indian food. Yay! And Tapex! Yay! ]I'm also going to buy toothpaste later. I'm dangerously low! And let's see, tonight I must sumbit my thesis for my next paper along with the notes for it, read some of Les Mis in French, and catch up on a whole lot of Lit. I also have to memorize this monologue for an audition tomorrow. I'm not expecting to get in, there are 3 girl parts, and this is the only undergrad production next quarter so all of the really good theatre majors will fill those. This is just really good practice for me. I also have two big midterms next week siiiigh.

So the other day in acting I thought my teacher was going to kill me. Haha so sad. I was running on two hours of sleep and hadn't really worked on our piece at all. I'm lucky I even knew the lines becaue I hadn't tried memorizing them. Anyway he HATED my objective (I was making things up left and right mostly because I missed the day in class where we went into depth with objectives). He kept making me redo the scene too because he wanted me to be bolder. I don't really mind being critiqued in front of the class because well all these years of opera and theatre have conditioned me well. No actually I think it was from being an 08 officer when Ms. Harris would yell at us. Don't get me wrong, I love Ms. Harris, esp. for that. I was just sad that I'm such a crappy actor. And that I made myself look more stupid because when he told me to jump up and down 3 times as punishment. I only jumped twice hahah I counted jumping up from the couch as one okay?! I had to do the exact same scene afterward because there are more boys than girls in my class (weird right?). And the second time he was on my case again because I made a joke and he took it seriously. I said not (insert objective from last time). Isn't that an obvious joke?! Anyway he thought my objective that time was too hard (I pulled that out of my behind too) and honestly I think he didn't think I'd be able to pull it off because he was probably doubting any ability I might have whatsoever. Anyway I did it and he loved it and I think was surprised that I had it in me. So BURN! Hahaha no I'm just glad I redeemed myself. This guy in my class was talking to me about it at lunch too. He told me my style is more subtle and realistic whereas our teacher is looking for really bold moves even though he told us to be genuine. I know, isn't he observant?! It's so funny because that's totally how I am as a person, my original name for this blog was subtle something or other! He made me feel loads better either way.

I'd also like to say I hate it when people tell me I'm insensitive or I don't care. I care about everything! Really. I feel things on another level most of the time (my poor friends can attest to that). But when it comes to big things I don't feel comfortable showing vulnerability. I will seriously rather cry alone in a cold bathroom than in the arms of my loving friends. Not that I ever cry alone in a cold bathroom, that's just crazy talk.

Have a nice weekend everyone! I know I will be. Mmmm studying for lit and MMW, how did I get so lucky?