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Back from an intense 2+ hours rehearsal with my acting partner, right after seeing a play with J. Tram. Peter and the Starcatchers was different than most of the plays UCSD or La Jolla Playhouse usually do. More commercial than abstract and experimental. It was an honor watching a Tony nominated actress. The cast was exceptional. Everyone held their own. Though some of the action scenes became monotonous for me and some of the performances as I told Jonathan, came off as stock characters, original for the context but not when compared with modern characters.


So we were suppose to have Persuasion read by Wednesday and of course I spent today reading it haha. The storyline was unreasonable. Going 8 1/2 years without any communication, ending on a bad note as well, yet still in love? Back then it was more plausible I suppose because of the amount of people one encounters. Most people nowadays don't even believe in the idea of soul mates because of our 6 billion + population.

Reminds me of this poem from Senior year. Technology and the modern age chip away the ideals of love. The letter which Captain B. leaves Anne. When does that ever happen now? If it were this day and age, Anne would be getting a 1 line love text if she were lucky (unless she was me who does not receive text, then she'd be getting a what's up on AIM). And no, these modern derivations are not equivalent.

It is highly doubtful that someone would go 8 1/2 years now never meeting anyone equal to a past lover who scorned them. The next day they'd probably be hooking up with whomever from the club. And people consider me an idealist! Coming from me, however, this argument becomes a complete conundrum because I'm not even one of those girls who demands gushy romantic gestures, just be nice and feed me a lot hahaha. Well perhaps more than that. But anywho here is the poem.

By: W. H. Auden

As I walked out one evening,
Walking down Bristol Street,
The crowds upon the pavement
Were fields of harvest wheat.

And down by the brimming river
I heard a lover sing
Under an arch of the railway:
'Love has no ending.
"I'll love you, dear, I'll love you
Till China and Africa meet,
And the river jumps over the mountain
And the salmon sing in the street,

"I'll love you till the ocean
Is folded and hung up to dry
And the seven stars go squawking
Like geese about the sky.

"The years shall run like rabbits,
For in my arms I hold
The Flower of the Ages,
And the first love of the world."

But all the clocks in the city
Began to whirr and chime:
"O let not Time deceive you,
You cannot conquer Time.

"In the burrows of the Nightmare
Where Justice naked is,
Time watches from the shadow
And coughs when you would kiss.

"In headaches and in worry
Vaguely life leaks away,
And Time will have his fancy
To-morrow or to-day.

"Into many a green valley
Drifts the appalling snow;
Time breaks the threaded dances
And the diver's brilliant bow.

"O plunge your hands in water,
Plunge them in up to the wrist;
Stare, stare in the basin
And wonder what you've missed.

"The glacier knocks in the cupboard,
The desert sighs in the bed,
And the crack in the tea-cup opens
A lane to the land of the dead.

"Where the beggars raffle the banknotes
And the Giant is enchanting to Jack,
And the Lily-white Boy is a Roarer,
And Jill goes down on her back.

"O look, look in the mirror?
O look in your distress:
Life remains a blessing
Although you cannot bless.

"O stand, stand at the window
As the tears scald and start;
You shall love your crooked neighbour
With your crooked heart."

It was late, late in the evening,
The lovers they were gone;
The clocks had ceased their chiming,
And the deep river ran on.


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